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Monday, May 17, 2004

gossip

I don't know about other folks but i've come to a point in my life where being a hermit sounds pretty freaking amazing. I have been really busy this year with school and stuff. Since it's been winding down, i've really tried to make an effort to be social again. To be honest, i really struggled when i first started going out with people again. And now that i'm back in the social scene-i've almost had enough already. My heart hurts because the minute you start being social is the minute before people start gossiping about you. No matter what people say these days turns into gossip. The minute another persons name enters a conversation, it is run to the person-good or bad comments and turned into someone talking about them. I know i'm not any better then anyone else and in writing this i am fully admiting that i have and more then likely(unless God somehow completly heals me of this sin) will happen again.
I find it frustrating that our C&C is known for cliques and gossip. When i hear that is what people think of us i am dissappointed. Over the last year i know i have been the brunt of gossip. When people tell you they are with others who sit around and talk about you it sucks-it hurts when people hear that. I know there are people who are on various leadership teams as well and fairly or not i tend to hold leadership at a higher standard. When i hear that those people are spreading the rumors instead of stopping them, i think it makes it harder for people who aren't in leadership positions(once again, i'm speaking to myself in this). I've noticed that our C&C has grown apart this year-and i think that's fine when people are growing, and change happens. When a C&C becomes spread out and lack of contact between once friends because of gossip, hurt feelings and pride, then i think it is time to evaluate our hearts(once again myself included). I'm not trying to say our C&C sucks or that we're falling apart-i think this year has been one maybe more so of individual growth which can help the group overall. I just know that there have been hurt feelings because of gossip in our group by people and i wanted to say something about it.

Gossip:
a : rumor or report of an intimate nature b : a chatty talk c : the subject matter of gossip
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