Bring on the Sunshine

Oh how i love summer-the sun, the colors, the wonderful warmth(when i'm not burned-which is rare), and the birds, when they aren't waking me up before 5 am-but whatever, yeah for summer.
So, i'm officially done my teacher associate course and ready to work. Apparently no one hires until fall, so it looks like i have a month off. Now ordinarily this could seem wonderful-i'm broke-very very broke. It looks like i'll be doing a lot of reading on the deck and trying to amuse myself with minimal cost. That's okay, i'll survive. I am incredibly lucky to have such a caring mom who helps me in times like this. I still need a bunch of stuff for Panama and right now it looks like mom will be helping with that more then i initially planned-but such is life. I've been fortunate to be able to borrow a thermorest and sleeping bag already which is super-less expense for me! Anyone now where i can find decent rain attire for decent cost?? If u do, let me know.
54 more days til i'm on my way to the jungle!! no excitement here.:)

gossip

I don't know about other folks but i've come to a point in my life where being a hermit sounds pretty freaking amazing. I have been really busy this year with school and stuff. Since it's been winding down, i've really tried to make an effort to be social again. To be honest, i really struggled when i first started going out with people again. And now that i'm back in the social scene-i've almost had enough already. My heart hurts because the minute you start being social is the minute before people start gossiping about you. No matter what people say these days turns into gossip. The minute another persons name enters a conversation, it is run to the person-good or bad comments and turned into someone talking about them. I know i'm not any better then anyone else and in writing this i am fully admiting that i have and more then likely(unless God somehow completly heals me of this sin) will happen again.
I find it frustrating that our C&C is known for cliques and gossip. When i hear that is what people think of us i am dissappointed. Over the last year i know i have been the brunt of gossip. When people tell you they are with others who sit around and talk about you it sucks-it hurts when people hear that. I know there are people who are on various leadership teams as well and fairly or not i tend to hold leadership at a higher standard. When i hear that those people are spreading the rumors instead of stopping them, i think it makes it harder for people who aren't in leadership positions(once again, i'm speaking to myself in this). I've noticed that our C&C has grown apart this year-and i think that's fine when people are growing, and change happens. When a C&C becomes spread out and lack of contact between once friends because of gossip, hurt feelings and pride, then i think it is time to evaluate our hearts(once again myself included). I'm not trying to say our C&C sucks or that we're falling apart-i think this year has been one maybe more so of individual growth which can help the group overall. I just know that there have been hurt feelings because of gossip in our group by people and i wanted to say something about it.

Gossip:
a : rumor or report of an intimate nature b : a chatty talk c : the subject matter of gossip

Crazy dayz

What an extremly odd day. Mom leaves the 3 of us home and nothing goes right-moms have secret powers i swear. First, my sister was trying to put a shelf together last nite-with 1 arm because she has bad tendenitis and can't use the other-yeah smart i know. So, she screwd up the shelf good. So, dad actually offered to help her(if she cleane the guinea pig cage-thank goodness).
I decide it's summer and make my way to the deck and notice the bird acting odd. so i say to pam-pam i think this bird is laying an egg. I look in later to realize pam is crying-her and dad don't work well together. i end up helping-seeing as how she's gimpy. So, we finally get the thing together-bird looks worse, but pam is happier. Pam goes to vaccum before we take shelf upstairs-hmm...vaccum seems broken-odd. use the portable, get shelf in and ready to put pigs cage in(whole purpose for shelf)-pigs cage doesn't fit-apparently she didn't measure before hand. Okay, new purpose for shelf, vaccum still doesn't work, and...uh oh...bird no longer laying an egg...bird dead. Guess the only thing to do now is...go back outside and plan i-40 stuff because that's all i can do. hope someone takes the bird out before the other one gets hungry.

A question on Birds

Today's point to ponder: can birds fly and have a baby(egg) at the same time? I ask this because one of our birds was acting strange today and doesn't look like it can fly. And when i walked up to the cage-the one did the usual squaking and flying but the other just sat and looked at me. I decided hey-look at the other side of the bird since nothing looked odd from the front. Okay, i don't normally look at the backside of a bird-but it didn't look what i considered normal. So, it led me to think it may be laying an egg. It's now at the bottom of the cage and i think until it lays, it's stuck there-doesn't seem like it can fly-odd i think. Guess i know now which one laid the last egg and which one is the girl. :)

Talk with a stranger

I logged onto my msn the other nite to find Kyle online, so being curious as what is new with him i said hi. Well, Kyle is on a missions trip in Gaudalajara, Mexico. He is doing some kind of building project and it looks like his stay may be extended. The lumber that they need to do the project is held up somewhere along the line and can't get to the place. Kyle would like us to pray for him on his trip. For safety on their site as well.